Some experiences are etched in your memory! and even with time their importance never decimates.....today I feel like sharing one such experience from my life.......something that defined for me.... what love is!
..........I could do anything for one glance at her! I could walk miles; go completely out of my way to cross hers...I used to skip a few heartbeats when she caught me looking at her! I used to keep waiting for the whole day to meet her for that one hour... I used to keep dreaming of situations where we would be going around! I would be planning 1000 ways to start the conversation with her and when she came, I could never gather the courage! ........ I realized something was happening to me...There was the girl I was madly in something with...something which I could never figure out....though when i look back, it seems to be love......and that something was the experience that defined love for me! and till date I look back to my first tryst with love with sheer admiration! longing to replicate the same every time I skip a heart beat :-)
My longing to talk to her......listening to her endless banter....just being with her.....feeling the warmth around her....and those sparks when her senses crossed mine! those careless brushes...those smiling lips... still crosses my mind when I go back!
I was in some trance...every thought of her would bring a smile to my face even when I would be standing right in the middle of a crowded market looking at 100 unknown faces (read as people shopping around me).....her face would instantly make me feel at peace even when i was facing the wrath of many tormentors (read as teachers).....the thought of being with her would make me endure anything (read as exams, studies, stupid PT classes) for any time (read as school timing).......the adrenalin rush when we shared the same umbrella on a rainy day!...I was surely in some trance...
When I look back, all that i have is
a set of smiles strewn over a few months in time,
a bunch of giggles lying all over those old places where i grew up,
a palm that was wet due to holding hands on a summer day,
a heart with the silly scare of being watched and followed,
a glance of a mischievous smile hanging at the corner of her lips,
a tremble in my lips when I kissed her for the first time,
a feeling of a gentle touch from her embrace,
a thousand rain drops that we felt on our faces when we got wet in the rain together for the first time,
some impatience which grew in while waiting for her,
some needless anger just to steal an opportunity to get pampered,
miles and miles of stretches that we walked side by side
.....and a heartful of memories
After so many years it really doesn’t matter how it ended, all that seems important is that it taught me something....something that the world calls love and I call an itch :-) an itch in the heart!
I think no one can ever forget their first love and I truly believe the first experience in love also defines what and how you perceive love.......here was my perception.....what is yours!
..........I could do anything for one glance at her! I could walk miles; go completely out of my way to cross hers...I used to skip a few heartbeats when she caught me looking at her! I used to keep waiting for the whole day to meet her for that one hour... I used to keep dreaming of situations where we would be going around! I would be planning 1000 ways to start the conversation with her and when she came, I could never gather the courage! ........ I realized something was happening to me...There was the girl I was madly in something with...something which I could never figure out....though when i look back, it seems to be love......and that something was the experience that defined love for me! and till date I look back to my first tryst with love with sheer admiration! longing to replicate the same every time I skip a heart beat :-)
My longing to talk to her......listening to her endless banter....just being with her.....feeling the warmth around her....and those sparks when her senses crossed mine! those careless brushes...those smiling lips... still crosses my mind when I go back!
I was in some trance...every thought of her would bring a smile to my face even when I would be standing right in the middle of a crowded market looking at 100 unknown faces (read as people shopping around me).....her face would instantly make me feel at peace even when i was facing the wrath of many tormentors (read as teachers).....the thought of being with her would make me endure anything (read as exams, studies, stupid PT classes) for any time (read as school timing).......the adrenalin rush when we shared the same umbrella on a rainy day!...I was surely in some trance...
When I look back, all that i have is
a set of smiles strewn over a few months in time,
a bunch of giggles lying all over those old places where i grew up,
a palm that was wet due to holding hands on a summer day,
a heart with the silly scare of being watched and followed,
a glance of a mischievous smile hanging at the corner of her lips,
a tremble in my lips when I kissed her for the first time,
a feeling of a gentle touch from her embrace,
a thousand rain drops that we felt on our faces when we got wet in the rain together for the first time,
some impatience which grew in while waiting for her,
some needless anger just to steal an opportunity to get pampered,
miles and miles of stretches that we walked side by side
.....and a heartful of memories
After so many years it really doesn’t matter how it ended, all that seems important is that it taught me something....something that the world calls love and I call an itch :-) an itch in the heart!
I think no one can ever forget their first love and I truly believe the first experience in love also defines what and how you perceive love.......here was my perception.....what is yours!
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splendid indeed...
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